u'll see that

I know. 

One day u eventually come here, as u did before.

It's been few days, but tonight is one of the worst nights I had since a long time.

What should I write here for u? That I miss u a lil but too much, or that I feel that I made a huge mistake? I hope that one day I won't even think about it anymore, but now

I just need to be 3 thousand miles away from the place I am, should be not even thinking what would have happened if I made another decision, should be probably lying next to u, or being in the park with u watching at the dogs going crazy in the river, holding ur hand, feeling ur smell and warmth.

I'm not sure how I'm gonna live through this winter, then spring. How I'll manage to sleep all alone for the next 8 months. 

I'm just so sorry I haven't told u how much I love u before. I just hope that this time it's not gonna hurt again.

Once, when u come here, maybe it will be soon, or not, I just want us to be still us.